WTF is "appropriately" lar?

I fuckin’ hate moaning over miserable incidents and hardship in life, though I have done that myself as to have always questioned “how da fuck do they do it? How come I got no marnie when the rest are doing so fine?” the underlying intention is not about moaning but an urge to improve and strive up! It’s easier said than done to do something about your life when you are in a lesser position as compared to a more comfortable position as in lesser position, you got nothing to lose!

When you feel comfortable and contended with what you have, your balls shrink to tiny whiny seed sized uhhh, balls. You are oh-so-afraid-of taking the steps and before you know it, the opportunity to act is gone and you started cursing and promised to swell your balls to take up the challenge. Which in perfect sense is the correct way of doing it but your balls tendency to shrink is larger than the influence of your head. Then the vicious cycle continues to no end that you would end up living in the comfort zone with the balls shrinking and shrinking and shrinking and like pressing the King Kong vs. fighter planes to repeat mode.

This is exactly going thru my mind now with so many influences of thoughts and teachings invading my tiny whiny brain. Some say save up for the worse time while others say to appropriately pamper yourself. When the fuck is worse time, like when your tubes in the power amp are giving up while you’ve just replaced the tubes in your pre amp with super-duper-military-grade-indestructible-oh-so-sweet-golden-sounding-NOS which consumed most of your mediocre bonus + hard earned savings + sweat blood FD?

Shit, I thought you said to appropriately pamper yourself? Isn’t “pamper” supposed to mean a treat, an indulgence, a luxury for yourself? You didn’t even tell me what exactly is “appropriately”? Heck, as if we are suppose to know ((a dick + a clam)/tubes) /= baby?!?!?! I didn’t even know that until I was, geee, do I hafta reveal that?

Anyway, you silly economists are spreading all the friggin’ ideas in books, magazines, newspapers and talks and seminars! I bet you when asked the question of what do you do when you are free and your pity answer would be, “gee, I love my job, and I spend most of my time, inclusive of weekends and holidays, to be in the office analyzing graphs and charts and analysis to predict the next big opportunity to strike big and be rich.” So, how have you been doing? “well, like I said, I am still analyzing the graphs and charts and analysis…” WTF, you wanna waste your time it’s your problem lar, why drag us into this you got-nothing-better-to-do-pity-with-no-one-to-ask-out invading our peaceful life with your stupid theories and beliefs?

Anyway, just how exactly should I pamper myself lar? Should I buy the Benchmark DAC1 or not?

Emi Fujita and some... 2 cents...

I really consider myself lucky, and I really really really mean it. Being a nobody coming to a big city like KL, I was blessed with good will and friends.

I didn't know Emi Fujita was coming until Cheah of Inter Global sms-ed me about it. Though I know it would be packed and though I went to Hard Rock earlier, I was really blessed to know Cheah whom arranged me to sit just next to the stage. I could actually touch the pianist during the performance!

Even during my star chasing years, I was glad to know Lum Sir, the man behind all the bouncers. I was able to get close and personal with a lot of artists and singers, leaving many green with envy. Now, Lum Sir is the boss of one event management company dealing with many high profile performances.

I was blessed to have known many audiophiles, and some acquainted thru some audiophile mutual friends. They opened my eyes to possibilities in live, to see what one could achieve for themselves by working hard and setting goals! Just like what Steven Chow would say, “If one does not have dreams, one does not differ from salted fish!” Which I totally agree!

I am one of those guys who always treat a cup as half empty when it is actually half filled. I always strive to have the cup filled, when the cup is full, I would then strive for bigger cup. I know, guys being hard wired to make every effort for glory and fame would never fail to look for “er” behind BIG, FAST and LONG. Better still, to have “est” behind every word!

It's just like peeping around in the toilet in hope to be the bolder, longer and bigger one. Well, except that for malehood, there is very little that could be done to it. But financially, I guess every male on earth is doing their best to achieve better. Better for the spouse, better for the children and better for the family.

But then, there are also people who are so easily contented. Always feeling full when the cup is only half filled. I don't know, I am not them and maybe I have a hard to satisfy thirst for anything better. Sometimes, I just feel bad for them.

Human evolves, and evolution is what tells us apart from trees hanging orang utans. Hence, being a male, I always feel it's part of our live and responsibility to provide better things for the family. Call me superficial, call me an egoistic idiot, call me whatever you like. But seeing some friends remaining the way they were just makes me feel bad for them.

I ain't no fuckin' egocentric, but are they really happy in being what they are? Or have they been self deceiving for so long a time until they could not even tell if they are really satisfied in their current state? I mean, when one speaks of better things and you just could not chip in, how does that feel? I do not know about others, but for me, I ain't no doing nothing to just leave things to fate!

Do they really feel that's it for their lives or do they have no intention of improving or are they ain't having what it takes to improve? To progress? In this world of ours today, everyone has equal opportunity to get better! Heck, some rich tycoons don't even have a degree. So, stop telling me you are under-educated. And heck, some tycoons even have a PhD. It's not about what you have, it's about what you are doing to improve your situation!

I know I am blessed with a good living and I am counting my good blessing for not to take them for granted. I ain't no cocky bastard to be flaunting around and despising everyone whom I deem way inferior to even be qualified to be living as human being. I just feel that you owe it to yourself to attain better things.


So, when Emi Fujita asked which songs I liked most, I answered, “gee, it's tough for me and really unfair for you as every song is equally great!” she smiled. So, I helped a friend to get Emi's autograph on all his CDs and suddenly he felt the CDs sounded much better. So, I even approached the accompanying guitarist and pianist to get their autographs and praised them for their performance so as to not make them feel left out. So, I also shook hand with the Japanese PR and thanked her so she would feel appreciated for her translation effort.

So, I have done so many good deeds, do I get to keep my good blessing for a little bit longer?

Galloping horse, that's me!

Hua, this 2006 year would be a great year for me leh!

You know har, even 雨扬居士 also said ah, the year is so good for me until the light bulb also would explode leh!

This year for horse ah, like me, would do very well in career development and wealth creation. My talent will be very much appreciated and will also be able to initiate a promising future and to make substantial earnings based on my strength!

Also har, for horse, like me ah, their creativity and learning ability will not only carve out a promising career, but also help in achieving fame and fortune!

Sadly hor, when it comes to love, that is where my wit ends! I will get a lot of 烂桃花 this year. Hmmm... must be very careful with the pry-full girls around me!

So how when the sex is so good?!

Can you handle the truth?

Can you handle it when you have the opportunity to know every single sex your girlfriend has had with all her exes? What I am going to tell you has got the same mental devastation as when you get to know all the sexes your girlfriend has had down to the gory details, of course those not with you!

The story unfolds like this, I have been with this girl for a while. She's attentive, her voice is sweet and her figure is well endowed with perfect proportion. At least that's my impression until recently, when one of my pals introduced this girl to me.

Let's put it this way, when you have had a steady relationship going on for 2 years, you ain't stupid enough to wreck havoc to it. So it was casual at first, you know, spending some time out together with no pre-committal baggage.

Soon, you realized that your current partner is by no means any closer to this new girl you just got to know. She's vibrant, attentive to minute details, witty and the best thing is whatever your partner has now, she betters it and sex, too, is mind boggling!

Omigod! I was god smacked and flabbergasted! Totally swept off guard! I was so excited that I shared this with no other than my best pal cum mentor. Prior to introducing this girl to Leslie, I was so chirpy about her, singing praises about her like she's my perfect angel!

Then came the aghast truth that she was Leslie's friend's ex! Being a composed person, Leslie did not break any of her dark secret to me. But being close to Leslie, of course there're plenty of time I could collect bits and pieces of her. And they are ugly!

So I sms-ed Leslie, "I should not have tested the Audio Note DAC1 at your place!"

"Why?!"
"Why?! Your Audio Research LS25MKII is way beyond the DAC1's league!"

"So?"
"It's a huge improvement over my Sony's DAC! It's darn quite good in my place!" (The "darn" word was spared after listening to the DAC1 at Leslie's place.)

"Then?"
"But the DAC1 sucks big time in your place!"

"So?"
"It's like knowing every sex your girlfriend has had with her exes down to the gory details! No matter how good she is, you would have the mental baggage!"

"Then?"
"I guess I'll enjoy it while the DAC1 is still with me."

"The pain would be very excruciating when the DAC1 is no longer with you."
"But it's so bad at your place!"

"Bear in mind the possibility of mismatch, RCA vs. XLR!"
"How am I going to commit when I think of how it sounded at your place?!"

Then came the words of wisdom:
"If you enjoy the sex at your place, that's all that counts!"

When less means more...

I received a call the other day, normally I don't receive many phone calls. Most of the time, it would only be calls from my mum. And most of the time, it was mostly because of the computer my mum is using acting on her again.

The call was from one of the audio dealers I know, in fact the one I know most recently after buying a power cable from him.

Dealer: Hey KC, good or not?
Me: OK lar, same same lar.
D: Sure good lar, bonus is coming, you looking for anything?
M: No lar, trying to stay away from spending lar.
D: Oh, I got a Meridian 508.24 lar, very mint condition.
M (trying to act excited and interested): Really, wah, how much you are looking at?
D: Very cheap for you lar, RM6.9K. Very good condition you know!
M: Hmmm... expensive! Anyway, if I am keen, I will pay you a visit lar.
D: OK lar, come and have a look lar.

Guys, you know my resolution this year, crave less and make more. I have been slowly gaining momentum in craving less. No buy new audio magazines, as my mum always said, if you don't see, you wouldn't know what you are missing.

Even lunch nowadays have been very thrifty for me, normally eating at this place close to my office would only cost me RM2.50 to RM3, the most is RM3.5 lar. Hey, I am not skimping on food, OK? What good there is when you have heaps but no health to enjoy your hard earned dough? It’s just that this place is very cheap, OK?

Great isn't it when you set yourself a resolution and work hard towards it? What's better when you see yourself progressing? But that's only the first half, what about the other part on making more? No point rite!? Achieving only half of your goal but could do nothing about the latter part?!

Hey, RM6.9K is not too bad after all rite? The CDP is a reputable one mar, many audiophiles still swear by it. Not that I could not afford it, spend a little lar, CNY coming mar! If you don't spend, how on earth are we going to progress without anyone spending?! Either you hit the full jackpot or give up trying!

OK lar! So the next morning, I went to the ATM and fingered the machine. Got RM6K out coz the max I could get is RM6K per day. By the end of the day, I was a happy guy again with a slip with me back at home. Ah, isn't it good to see your money leaving you?! Stupid lar if I say YES!

What I did was I got myself an FD with 4% per annum. I know, it's not a lot lar, but at least it defeated the inflation effect. So, I did hit the full jackpot as I am making more! Though only marginally, but I still feel happy to see myself working towards my New Year resolution!

Unconditional Love!

The picture says it all...

Albums that could fuck up your brain!

I have been spinning some discs recently, some really cool discs that I think any music lover that worth every pinch of their own salt should not miss! I was thinking of writing about Fish and Stef first, but the two I am writing now appeal me in more ways!


First up is Janice's My Love. After the tough-act-to-follow first album, I was eagerly anticipating her second album! Day after day of listening to some tracks in 903 has driven my crave for her new full album to insane level!

In this album, there's no more Justin (側田) but brings many other more talents in the HK music scene. The quality of track selections is not as consistent as the first one, which were all but Leon's previous works. This time around, the album carries mostly new tracks with a few exceptions.

With the first album creating such huge followings, (eh, to my knowledge only me and Leslie shared the same level of passion for her, well, big enough for our niche dieing breed of audiophile.) it surely sets the level sky high for the second album to be as good, if not better.

Janice has got this cuteness in her voice that would bring nothing but your best love for her! I have been spinning tracks like 十個他不如你一個, 一場誤會, 心亂如麻 and 大哥, not to say other tracks are not as good, it's just the way she conveys her emotions thru these tracks. And the lyrics are good, too! Especially 心亂如麻, listen to how Janice sings this verse and you would have weak knees!

是你不想我了
甚至不找我了
無非幾天變化
就像刮我幾千巴
難道你共我親吻抱擁之後竟有偏差
不想和我好 請求直説真話

That guy must be a DICK!


Second album was Cheer's 華麗的冒險. What can I say? I must be a dick as well to have not bought any of her previous album! Her compositions exude exquisiteness that greatly reflects her taste and talents! The music arrangements are rich and grand to certain extend, faithfully echoing the theme of the album, giving you an ostentatious escapade into Cheer's musical wonderland!

Oh, her voice is so heavenly, pure and flawless. Nothing seems as rewarding as listening to her in the wee hours, serenading to your worn out tired soul. A bit of caution though, her compositions are heavily indie influenced. This means that you have to set yourself in the right mood to appreciate her works, as they dig deep into your sub-consciousness, at times bringing myself into deep thoughts.

Well, that's the main difference between the mainstream commercial pop that could provide you with instant high. With Cheer, you need to bring yourself up to the level of awareness, or else, you would imbue yourself with an aura of sadness! Bad if you are trying to get away from thinking of those unpaid bills.

Intoxicating? You bet!