WTF is "appropriately" lar?

I fuckin’ hate moaning over miserable incidents and hardship in life, though I have done that myself as to have always questioned “how da fuck do they do it? How come I got no marnie when the rest are doing so fine?” the underlying intention is not about moaning but an urge to improve and strive up! It’s easier said than done to do something about your life when you are in a lesser position as compared to a more comfortable position as in lesser position, you got nothing to lose!

When you feel comfortable and contended with what you have, your balls shrink to tiny whiny seed sized uhhh, balls. You are oh-so-afraid-of taking the steps and before you know it, the opportunity to act is gone and you started cursing and promised to swell your balls to take up the challenge. Which in perfect sense is the correct way of doing it but your balls tendency to shrink is larger than the influence of your head. Then the vicious cycle continues to no end that you would end up living in the comfort zone with the balls shrinking and shrinking and shrinking and like pressing the King Kong vs. fighter planes to repeat mode.

This is exactly going thru my mind now with so many influences of thoughts and teachings invading my tiny whiny brain. Some say save up for the worse time while others say to appropriately pamper yourself. When the fuck is worse time, like when your tubes in the power amp are giving up while you’ve just replaced the tubes in your pre amp with super-duper-military-grade-indestructible-oh-so-sweet-golden-sounding-NOS which consumed most of your mediocre bonus + hard earned savings + sweat blood FD?

Shit, I thought you said to appropriately pamper yourself? Isn’t “pamper” supposed to mean a treat, an indulgence, a luxury for yourself? You didn’t even tell me what exactly is “appropriately”? Heck, as if we are suppose to know ((a dick + a clam)/tubes) /= baby?!?!?! I didn’t even know that until I was, geee, do I hafta reveal that?

Anyway, you silly economists are spreading all the friggin’ ideas in books, magazines, newspapers and talks and seminars! I bet you when asked the question of what do you do when you are free and your pity answer would be, “gee, I love my job, and I spend most of my time, inclusive of weekends and holidays, to be in the office analyzing graphs and charts and analysis to predict the next big opportunity to strike big and be rich.” So, how have you been doing? “well, like I said, I am still analyzing the graphs and charts and analysis…” WTF, you wanna waste your time it’s your problem lar, why drag us into this you got-nothing-better-to-do-pity-with-no-one-to-ask-out invading our peaceful life with your stupid theories and beliefs?

Anyway, just how exactly should I pamper myself lar? Should I buy the Benchmark DAC1 or not?